When I was a kid, I did not have a lot of clips about my own gender. I do not know how everyone recognizes their gender, but I determined through my classmates and parents.

I don’t remember now if my parents told me about my gender as soon as I was born. All the memories I remember about gender cognition happened in my elementary school. I don’t remember if I knew my gender at the time, but I remember I played well with the boys. In kindergarten to elementary school, I am relatively active in the class, I will participate in activities for boys and girls. So at that time, I didn’t have much concept of gender cognition, I just felt that everyone was the same. When I was a kid, I was very athletic, so I had a close relationship with the boys. During the lessons, I often play on the playground with the boys, such as running and long jumps. I also have great strength. Drinking fountains in elementary schools need to be changed. Because of the heavy weight, the teachers made the boys change, but I can do the same, so I think boys and girls are no different.

Until one day, I went to the playground with the girls in the class, and things changed. We had half an hour of free time when I walked to the playground with the three girls. On the way to the playground, several boys saw me and invited me to play football with them. I agreed happily and told the girls that I would go to them in a while. Something strange happened. When I returned to find girls to play, I was rejected by them. They said that I was close to the boy, and I was just like the boy. They didn’t even want to walk with me. This makes me wonder why I cannot go with girls when I am good with boys. However, girls did not want to be with me, neither some boys. They won’t invite me to play sports with them, and ignored me for sometimes.

I was so upset about my situation. I became lonely. When I got home, I asked my parents, and they told me that girls and boys are different. Because I am a girl, in order to avoid a lot of problems, girls should keep a proper distance from boys. They don’t think that boys and I are good at sports, but girls should be more elegant. After that, I started trying to be ladylike. I don’t like wearing it because of the inconvenience of sports, but I started wearing skirts and started to keep a distance from the boys. Afterwards, I found that the boys are very energetic, and they can easily pick up the girls and not move. I started to understand the difference between genders. I understand the differences, but I don’t understand why they cause discrimination. Because many can be changed the day after tomorrow, such as speed or strength.